Tax Office

 so long since i last wrote here, not much changed thought, i changed the city of workplace and there are girls with potential but i'm still in love with her, more likely can't forget her can't push her out of my mind, i will heal thought, just need more time...

 Allah'ım beni affet, aklım hala nasip etmediğinde. Senden, senin aşkından uzaklaştım da neler yaptım hali hazırda da her an yapacak gibiyim, koru kurtar beni ya Rab!

 Ben deniz oluyom bu Ankara, yok abi tek taraflı uğraş uğraş nereye kadar, 2019 resimlerime bakıyom saçım ne dökülmüş ne beyazlamış, bu koduğumun kezbanı yüzünden saçı döktük beyazlattık, bunu sevdiğim gerçekse kendimi daha çok sevdiğim de gerçek, bu ne lan durduk yere ağzıma oluk oluk sıçtırdım boka doydum yeter bu kadar sanki gel beni devir diyen yok.

 i thought i got good observation skills that i can see people but i couldn't see the real bitch. Maybe i got blinded by the love or maybe i didn't have good observation skills at all now i can see the real bitch who runs the how. Stay away from her avert her at any cost (you lost your love already, don't you give her hand a higher value she can cost) STAY AWAY, SHE IS EVIL

 Once was a big deal in my life now i can't even remember her name or events that took place.  After all it was nothing i guess, she drained my life force and wasted a big chunk of my time, now i can barely  remember her. Bits of pieces in my mind.  Love is waste of time and life energy.

 It all begins thirty eight years ago! Yes i was more active when i was little.  There was neighbours girl Sennur, she was just a year little than me althought i was just a mammas boy. i don't have a memory about it (normally) but there is a picture showing i kissed her. She even show thas picture years later to my classmates at high school. And i got no memory of following years and no records althought i remember my elder sister saying the name Aslı as my fellow. When my memory begins (with the help of pictures) there is another neighbours girl İnci. i guess i started school life that time. I remember her on my bed what we were doing i don't recall. Later there are another neigbours girls. Yes girls, there were two of them. One (Elvan) is older than me, the other one is her sister (i don't remember her name or age). They trapped me in their house, lure me into bed and showed my head into their panties. At the time i never seen a female genital (or don't remember). And...