Short Story of My Time

 It all begins thirty eight years ago! Yes i was more active when i was little. 

There was neighbours girl Sennur, she was just a year little than me althought i was just a mammas boy. i don't have a memory about it (normally) but there is a picture showing i kissed her. She even show thas picture years later to my classmates at high school.

And i got no memory of following years and no records althought i remember my elder sister saying the name Aslı as my fellow.

When my memory begins (with the help of pictures) there is another neighbours girl İnci. i guess i started school life that time. I remember her on my bed what we were doing i don't recall.

Later there are another neigbours girls. Yes girls, there were two of them. One (Elvan) is older than me, the other one is her sister (i don't remember her name or age). They trapped me in their house, lure me into bed and showed my head into their panties. At the time i never seen a female genital (or don't remember).

And there was a platonic love for me at first school : Safiye Gül. Evendought i was at a young age i remember her very vividly. She was the best grade taking girl and i was the boy. Teacher make us sit together in duo althought everyone else was sitting as trios even some was sitting as foursome. I dropped the pen constantly to look under her skirt and i was just pulling most girls hair, (that behaviour explainad as the kids trying to get some attention or showing his atraction to female). I was a naughty boy indeed.

Than the elementry school began and those were in the past. I fell in yet another platonic love. She (Burcu) was blonde again. Not much to talk about her nor i talked to her.

So the high school began. i don't fall for a specific girl but i was ackward can't talked to any woman. There were Zeynep, Fatma İrem, Sema etc. I was terrified of woman can't talk about romance. İrem once aproached me at a recess, sat on facing me and telling why wouldn't i talked to her, did i hate her or something. i murmured and she left at the end as a result.

And those years ended as well. i started at univercity gained high and confidence as well. Yet i never chatted a girl about a date. There were several girls at college and different work i did at the time and girls i met online. And there was i, fell on platonic love to another petite blonde (Yağmur). That was something. That girl growed so big on my heart even these day i can recall the event instantly. i guess she was aware at the time because very later (2018) she saw me and hugged me saying "would i be seeing you like this". She was married and her husband was looking behind...

Than i met a girl (Ebru) on a bar at a local concert (false in truth). Actually we met online and later we decided to see each other. She was older (seven years) but i didn't give a crap. i was so honest to her she was dazzled by it. Maybe her exes weren't on the level and when she sees me as this... It lasted for months. We met at a bar drank and smoked for hours till midnight or even later than that. I always walked her home and her mama was waiting for her at the window/balcony. We even sleep at the same car for a carnival and later than this we broke up.

And we come to my longest lasting (for about 6/7 months) relationship. Here is Çiğdem, she was a petite brunette. She covered a lot in my life. She got into my bed, her parents knew we were lovers, i even got her a ring, we were going to get married but broke up for some nonsense. 

İlkay, i met online, go to a date with her. We drank and messaged a lot and that's it. 

There were Tülay, Seçil and others met online and not much happened to write.

Şeyma, i met online talked on the phone (she was in Ankara). Later i found out about her another lover and she was meeting him. i immediately stopped talking to her. She than reached out to a mutual friend and try to apologize over his phone but whats done is done.

Some girl i texted and dated lies here but some reason i cannot remember her name. A mutual friend bringed us together and nothing much happened as i recall.

Ceyda. i met online. We messaged to much. She was in İzmir so i decided to go there and met her. She got a girlfriend to tag along with her and i returned without really saying anything.

Than came the twenty four-five age. i met some girls (Damla, Ayşegül, Burçin and four or five others that i cannot recall names) at workplace. Even a girl (i cannot remember her name) giving me her number. And a Aslı incident at the time being. We drank too much at a birthday party (which was held in nevizade, friend was hers and she paid for me) she confessed her feelings towards me and we slept together as a result. Next morning i gone out the door first thing as i woke up.

When the year twenty eleven i was graduated from univercity and there was a course on vatan street. There were girls even teachers atracted to me (i cannot see why) yet i can't remember a single name.

Following event takes place at a course on Üsküdar district. There was a girl i fell for. She was a tall brunette however which doesn't fit the pattern. i always fell for blondes. And i cannot remember her name.

Than i met a girl at pharmacy when the year was twenty thirteen. We were very intimate yet i cannot remember her name. Most of the time she was calling me i recall.

Year was twenty fifteen and there was another course. Girl (Esra) fell for me or i fell for her i cannot tell. It was a mixed thing glad it is over.

Than i did not fell for any girl for years. When the year twenty eighteen it happened. i fell for a villager girl (Medine) and nothing happened.

it is obvious i guess i don't fell for girls as i get older. Some girls (Hande, Damla) feel for me but i do not have anything to give as a response. i even tried to talked to some girl at pool (which her name was not on my mind) and her quick response was "what is your job" than i give up trying.

And finally (for the time) i fell for a villager girl (Aysun) for really big. I even asked her for a date (twice) i never did that in my entire life. Loved her and in return get devastated.