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Short Story of My Time

 It all begins thirty eight years ago! Yes i was more active when i was little.  There was neighbours girl Sennur, she was just a year little than me althought i was just a mammas boy. i don't have a memory about it (normally) but there is a picture showing i kissed her. She even show thas picture years later to my classmates at high school. And i got no memory of following years and no records althought i remember my elder sister saying the name Aslı as my fellow. When my memory begins (with the help of pictures) there is another neighbours girl İnci. i guess i started school life that time. I remember her on my bed what we were doing i don't recall. Later there are another neigbours girls. Yes girls, there were two of them. One (Elvan) is older than me, the other one is her sister (i don't remember her name or age). They trapped me in their house, lure me into bed and showed my head into their panties. At the time i never seen a female genital (or don't remember). And...

11.01.2023

 Chips are down again, started smoking stopped working out. Like i'm the enemy of myself. I'm surrounded by full of shit people, gossiping, lying, back stabbing, heart breaking... Worst part i have to see them everyday.  Bastards everywhere, may the God save me.
I'm in bad shape, why i'm in bad shape i don't really know. I want to smoke badly,  why am i doing this to myself? Why i am stuck on the recent events, why should or how should i still care about her? There is a girl at random picking she picked me and i don't even feel good there. Maybe it is a normal reaction, maybe soul wants to be feel sad sometimes.